Deeksha - Performance on 4th July 09

The D-Day is arriving..... 4th July, this Saturday, Deeksha is performing for 30 minutes at Seva Sadana on 14th Cross, Malleshwaram. Those of you for whom I do not have the mail ID, please treat this as a personal invitation from myself and Bhargavi.

We are quite excited and tensed about Deeksha going on stage without any support from either her teacher or me and Bhargavi and being there for 30 minutes !!! This is something we are facing for the first time. I think we should get used to this kind of excitement as she will be doing lots of events like this.

Out of Sight or Out of Mind

People say that "out of sight is out of mind". I am bit confused on this. There are so many things which we are not able to see, but how come those things are occupying prime time slots in our minds?

Just because I was on vacation for 2 weeks, my office and job was out of sight. But it was never out of my mind !!! On and off, I used to think about office.

But yes, looks like I have a selective amensia. I seem to keep things out of mind per my convenience, even though it is not out of sight.

There are some people in my life, whom I always want to be in my mind even though they are no more in my sight. Of course, there are huge number of people whom I want them to be out of sight and also out of mind, but it never happens.

For example, 1988, I met noted film director / actor Aparna Sen (Shabana Azmi will kill me if I say actress !!!. She does not believe in actor & actress. It sounds more of miss and mistress and is very demeaning.... She asks is there something called doctor & doctress?? then why actor and actress ??? quite a thought provoking issue !!! ) and got totally fida over her eyes and could not resist mentioning that to her (from that time onwards, any woman with beautiful eyes catches my eyes fast !!! ) . See my blog .... http://rameshmg.blogspot.com/2009/04/i-for-eye.html

She just smilingly looked at me and said, I thought there was no one in Bangalore who told me this, but you told me and now Bangalore is also added to my list !!. That's the memory I have about her.... the oomph, the grace, the sensualness she has, can never go out of my mind. It's etched in my mind. Now she is out of my sight, but she is never out of my mind !!!

What do you say???

Age for Life & Attitude

For first year MA, there were 54 people who took the exam. I was surprised to see only 22 people from my previous batch and also some interesting new faces in the examination hall. One such face was noted Kannada film actor Shivaram. Imagine. Exam was only half an hour to go and we were talking about the trends in the film industry and he went into little bit of flashback. He is 72 years old and has been in the industry for last 52 years !!!. I know Shivaram through my theatre days. In 1987, when I stepped into theatre, it was this Shivaram, who used to watch us do the rehearsals in the rehearsal sheds of Ravindra Kalakshetra and sometimes used get involved in the discussions.

I still wonder that Shivaram at this age, decides to do an MA in Kannada and we fellows take this as one serious thing and keep cribbing that we are old and we do not have patience to study. Lot to learn from Shivaram.

I know there is an age factor for life. Is there something called age for the attitude towards life?

Deeksha - Performing on July 4th

Deeksha is starting her daily rehearsals from today. The rehearsals would be from 6 PM to 9 PM.....

July 4th is her performance and Bhargavi and myself are tensed up. As I said, she and her teacher Vyjayanthi Kashi are cool about the performance...

It's strange that me, being on stage for the last 20 years, still feel nervous about these performances.

Deeksha would be on stage for 30 minutes all alone !!! that's what is creating a little bit pounding inside our hearts.... Ananya, a cultural trust for music and performing arts, is organizing this dance series called Chiguru where they provide platform for young budding talents across Bangalore. Deeksha has been selected out of the huge list of students for this performance.... Happy for her.....

Back after a long hiatus

Somehow, I was able to zip through my exams and I am back into action.
I was not in touch with the world. Music system in my room was powered off for almost 20 days !!!! From 8th June, till 20th June, my laptop was kept inside the cupboard and locked. My only mode of communication to outside world was my dabba mobile......

The exams, I found to be too excruciating.... not because I am writing my exams after a span of 20 years.... I always felt exams to be too sense less and too life less. It does not care who you are and what you think about them. Their only aim is to grill you and make your life tough.... So, what do we learn from exams? For me it's time and again proof that me and exams don't go hand in hand.....

However, I hope I am out of this rut called exams and I also hope that I will never get a chance to sit for an exam once again in my life.... I hope to see that I get my masters degree certificate and be done with it... It's too much... it's too tiring..... Bindu, a friend of mine jokingly commented on a little goof up I created in the office on Friday and she said that "Ramesh, I know ur brains are overworked after ur exams….ask ur boss some more leave!".... seriously, it is true, but unfortunately, I do not have that option of going for some more leave !!!! If I do that, I will be asked to leave !!! :)

It was 5 papers in Kannada literature covering literature from 5th century till 19th century. Even though I went through my text books 4 times, every time I was reading them, I was feeling that how come I know so little???

One paper on the inscription literature (these are the literatures inscribed on stones, metals and other materials.... these are the source of finding out how were the old days, what were the wars fought, how was the society? who were treated how? what did the king give to whom? and lots of other stuff) was quite tough but it's quite interesting to see how was the life then in 5th century. Even in 5th cetury, all human characters were there in every human being. Love, hatred, greed, war, peace, literature, beautiful and gorgeous women, handsome men, nature, everything. There was also one more thing which was there during those days which is not available today. Peace of Mind !!!!

Anyway, bygones be bygones....

I am happy to put my thought into this blog again and connect with the people on different planes... I happy to be back into this space again !!!